What I am doing here

Looking through some of what I have said on here it occurs to me that it might lean a bit too much to the dark. That is not my intent. I just gave someone a quick update on myself and then a couple of hours later realized that all I really needed to say was that I was doing OK, all things considered. But that isn’t what I did. Why?

One reason is that I post here so that people who know me can keep up, whenever they like, with my condition without me sending out long, boring emails. While I’ve made progress over the years I really don’t have a lot of great news to post. I also post so that other people in a similar situation can see that they aren’t alone. When I first found an ARDS web site it was very helpful to learn that I was not the only person who had gone through some of what I had gone through. You can feel very lonely and like an outsider when you have a serious illness that you never heard of before.

So I write about my health and other conditions to share them with the world in the hope that I might be of some help.

I also post for my own sake. It helps me to write things out. It’s a way I work out my feelings and ideas and problems and yes I am making that public, but I am doing that for the above reasons. There are a lot of things I write down that never make it to this blog. I post what I think is more general and not specific just to me, with the exception of when I am just letting people know how I am doing.

Comments are screened at the moment because even I get spam, not because I want to limit participation. Please comment on anything you want. I welcome any advice since that’s another reason to post here. I share with all of you, whoever you are, and you can share with me.

So I will keep doing what I am doing, but since the stuff about me has tended to be something less than uplifting, I will try to be less dark. I will try to post, when I can, things that are positive or entertaining.

Since I do sometimes write things in advance – since I am not the fastest at this – you can expect some things that I have been working on already to show up here and those things may not be all blue skies and sunshine. I hope they are enlightening nevertheless. One post in particular that I have been struggling with is about how I am trying to change things. Another that I have been trying to get right for over a year now is less progressive, but in working out that answer I am trying to change things and make them more positive.

That’s why I am on here. I want to be more positive. Sometimes that means posting about the negative because that is what I need to overcome. If I am lucky I will be able to do just that. If I am very lucky I will be able to help somebody else do the same thing.

Almost a whole week

It’s January 6th and I haven’t accomplished everything that I wanted to do in 2012.

Oh well, I might as well give up.

Just kidding. I always feel a little less than productive at this time of year because I am still recovering from the holidays. In truth I got a lot more done than I usually do during the first week of the year.

The holidays were pretty good and also more active than usual, so I don’t mind the recovery as much as I might otherwise. I still need more rest, and I have to beat back that part of my brain that says that I need to do more even when I know that I am unable to. Yes, in some ways I am messed up. This year I’ve managed to keep that part of my head in check, so far at least.

I hope everyone had a good end of the old year and a good beginning to the new year. If you have the opportunity, relax for a while – next week is soon enough to start breaking resolutions. That’s my plan.