There goes another green one right now

That buying a Studebaker Commander concept (see previous post) is a long term project. There is no instant gratification here, in fact, that’s pretty much the opposite of what this is all about.

It’s not that I’m denying what is wrong with me. I may do that to myself at times, or try to, but this isn’t one of them. And I don’t just mean working around my limitations, that’s a part of daily life. This is about trying things that might seem a bit crazy to try, things I might reasonably think I can’t do anymore and that may actually be beyond my abilities these days.

Big words, I know, and it remains to be seen how I manage.

I want to make sure that I don’t let whatever deficits I have get in the way where they shouldn’t. After all, I may not be able to do everything, but that doesn’t mean I can’t do anything. There must be things that I can do, even things that I can be good at. I need to find what they are.

I need to look for the things that I can do in spite of what is wrong with me, however small. Maybe I won’t be as accomplished as I may have once been able to be, but I can still be as accomplished as possible. I am always trying to get back to where I was or get to the point where I can lead a normal life, but I have pushed aside things that are beyond that.

I have neglected to dream about things that are more than necessary.

I need to dream.

A bear in his natural habitat

You know how when you buy a car, or anything really, you start to see all of the things just like it all around you? Once you buy a green Studebaker Commander everyone seems to be driving one.

Well, I decided not to let any limitations I have stop me from trying to do new things. So naturally I’ve been hearing a lot of things that relate to that. Suddenly I am hearing or reading things about people (superficially) like me or things about various aspects of recovery or doing better with what you have.

While some of it is little more than marketing, some of it actually resonates with me. I am trying to take it all in as it comes.

It’s only a burden if you make it one

All right, let’s just set aside the fact that we can eliminate the debt with some modest increases in taxes.

One of the favorite plaints is that we simply cannot leave this horrible debt for our grandchildren to pay.

Who said our grandchildren have to pay it?

No one today is willing to pay it, and we still have a functioning country. We’ve had debt since the founding of this nation. So who said it is ever going to be paid off? Sure, we pay our bills as they come due, and then we incur more debt. Countries work that way.

This is a bogus complaint. The debt is there, it would be nice if it wasn’t, but it need not be a crushing burden for any generation. If we wanted it to the government could borrow a lot of money really cheap right now and reduce interest payments. No one ever talks alternatives. It’s always just a flat – OHMYGODTHEDEBTISBAD – usually from people who didn’t care about the debt when their guy was in the White House. It’s just an excuse to do things that don’t really help the debt at all.

Yes, our nation has a debt. We can pay it off – or not.

That’s really the truth of the matter.

I wish I could do fake video

I want to take that AT&T commercial where the young guy talks to the old guy in the Italian village and his phone translates:
‘Excuse me. My Grandfather was born in this village.’

The old man listens to the translation and a look of recognition and kindness comes over his face.

I want to add a line for the old man where he looks at the kid and says, ‘I remember your Grandfather, you look just like him.’ Then his expression changes and he says, ‘He owes me twenty bucks.’

Does that make me a bad person?

Aargh

I spent the whole day finishing up some paperwork for the LTD insurance company. They do this periodically, asking for a doctor’s assessment of my condition, updates on my status, a list of docs I see and meds I take, and a few other things.

I don’t think they have any idea how difficult that is. It doesn’t sound like much, but it involves two extra trips to my doctor, pulling together all the information they want (that I have no other reason to keep track of in one place), getting the other info that I don’t normally have anyway because I have no use for it, filling out the forms and then checking everything.

This is just the kind of stuff that I have trouble with.

So, as productive as I may have been it certainly is tiring and I don’t get anything else done. It even managed to drive everything else I needed to do out of my head.

Oh well, at least it’s done and gets mailed tomorrow. Did I mention I had to fight the thing to fold it small enough to fit in the envelope? No, well, there was that too.

All I have to do the rest of the week is two doctor appointments, one trip for the dog, a run to the post office, some quick shopping for things we’ve run out of (that’s what I was supposed to do today) and make four more doctor appointments.

Fun, fun, fun.

Yes, it could be worse, but it still isn’t anything you would volunteer for.

Well, sometimes I just have to vent – in public even, but I should stop complaining. If my head has cleared enough maybe I can go read.

Balance

Sometimes there is no balance in life. All you can do is go back and forth, teetering on either side of that tiny point in the middle, letting life swing from one side to the other and hoping to avoid the extremes.

Jobs and taxes

If cutting corporate taxes really will create jobs, I have a suggestion.

Cut corporate taxes if they create jobs. Do it after the jobs are created, not as an incentive but as a reward.