Mondays

I have a problem with Mondays. Even though I am not working, I am bound by the work schedules of the people that I deal with – mostly doctors, but others as well. That means that I see weekends pretty much the way that everyone else does. There is also a very strongly ingrained pattern of behavior after decades of living a typical workweek schedule.

That means that Mondays are still that first day of the week when I need to get into gear.

This first week of January has been a Monday.

Blech. At least I feel as if this cold is finally lifting.

Onward! Or, the self-motivational post, sort of.

OK, I admit that I am slacking off. That’s what happens when there’s a weekend after a holiday. Everything seems to be waiting for Monday to begin. I did a few chores, but mostly I just slept this weekend. Hence the wee hour of the morning posting.

I don’t make New Year’s Resolutions. Not for any philosophical reasons, I just never get around to it, so there’s no waiting to start in on them. I just make plans. I need to keeping working on my recovery – which means moving on to the new things I was about to get to when I got sick for most of December; I need to read; I need to write; I need to learn; I need to create.

There, that’s a sketch of a plan/resolutions for the new year onward – with additions and edits and course corrections along the way.

I wish for everyone a good start to the first week of 2010 and a good year to follow.

Just a post for the 2nd

OK, so the cold knocked both me and my wife down so we stayed in on the 1st. This is the cold that will not leave. Also slept most of today, so we’re starting the year off very quietly. Which is not such a bad thing. I wish I had a clear enough head to read, but this cold is leaving me exhausted and my mind is muddled.

For example, I wrote yesterday’s post and then the editor lost it. I rewrote it – obviously – but I liked the first version better because it was clearer. Why can't I write the same thing twice? Oh well.

I always want to start a new year off right, but I’m not going to kick myself around. I’ll up the pace as soon as I can.

Congratulations to everyone who is starting off on new adventures this year! Good luck to you all!

Happy New Year!

There is a lot that can be said about the past year, and I started to write about it several times, but I've decided to put all of that behind me. I've had enough of repeating things about the past. There was a good thing that happened in 2009 - the favorable decision - and I will use that to let me stop thinking about this.

It has been an ever-present thing on my mind, but it is - and has been - time to move forward.

Here's to moving forward and to moving ahead.

I wish everyone a new year filled with happiness, health, peace, success and fulfillment.

Happy New Year to Everyone!

Wow, that was a long day!

I know, I said that I would post more tomorrow - which would have been a month ago.

Well, what with doctors and NaNo and doctors and NaNo and Thanksgiving, the month sort of got away from me.

However, I survived, and I finished NaNo. OK, everything I wrote is complete drek, but ya gotta start somewhere. Now I have something to fix up.

Maybe I can manage to post more in Decemeber. What could possibly interfere with posting in December?

And they're off!

Or maybe it's just me. No, there are definitely other people involved.

So, here I am, back again after nearly a month away. I was waiting for things to resolve a bit in my head. They didn't, but I'm back anyway.

The title refers to NaNoWriMo, which has now begun and I am again participating in my own inimitable - and really, who would want to copy it - way. I have chosen what I hope will be a fun idea to work on. This is all about cranking out the drek and having fun doing it. I'll worry about something that anyone could tolerate reading some other time.

For now it's just stringing words together in some semi-comprehensible way. I can't wait to see whay my brain comes up with and how my fingers interpret it.

More tomorrow.

Just to be clear

None of this is to say that I am not very grateful for having gotten this favorable decision. It will give me the security - no pun, just truth - to keep trying to get back on my feet again. That's all I've ever wanted to do and this won't change that, except to temporarily lessen that one worry.

I hope it will, anyway. There's a lot to worry about and I'm so good at it.

Some of my comments are angry. But I want everyone to know that I am grateful for what I have. My company covered me for disability and without it, as arbitrary and obstinate as the LTD company has been, I would have declared bankruptcy years ago. So I know that I am much more fortunate than many other people.

So, anger aside, I want to say thank you to everyone who has supported me through this.