That buying a Studebaker Commander concept (see previous post) is a long term project. There is no instant gratification here, in fact, that’s pretty much the opposite of what this is all about.
It’s not that I’m denying what is wrong with me. I may do that to myself at times, or try to, but this isn’t one of them. And I don’t just mean working around my limitations, that’s a part of daily life. This is about trying things that might seem a bit crazy to try, things I might reasonably think I can’t do anymore and that may actually be beyond my abilities these days.
Big words, I know, and it remains to be seen how I manage.
I want to make sure that I don’t let whatever deficits I have get in the way where they shouldn’t. After all, I may not be able to do everything, but that doesn’t mean I can’t do anything. There must be things that I can do, even things that I can be good at. I need to find what they are.
I need to look for the things that I can do in spite of what is wrong with me, however small. Maybe I won’t be as accomplished as I may have once been able to be, but I can still be as accomplished as possible. I am always trying to get back to where I was or get to the point where I can lead a normal life, but I have pushed aside things that are beyond that.
I have neglected to dream about things that are more than necessary.
I need to dream.
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